5 Things That Broke My Heart

5 Things That Broke My Heart

The good thing is life is that it is full of surprises. You can never really know what’s gonna happen. You can make destiny go towards a certain direction with the choices you make. And face the consequences. Or you can just things happen without having any power to do or change anything. Those things – 100% serious or not – that sometimes, may break your heart and teach you some important lessons.

1. When I left New Zealand
I moved to New Zealand in July 2012 for a year abroad as part of my bachelor degree. I could barely speak English and the jump was terrifying. The feeling didn’t last long. I never had as much fun in my life as I did back then. I met a lot of amazing people, explored the country, got to party a lot. This experience brought me so much. I became more independent, creative, out-going and open-minded. Living abroad made me change my perception of myself, others and many things. It kinda liberated me: socially, personally and sexually. I was myself, free and a party girl. A blast. Yet, the experience would not last forever. As I stepped foot in the plane, realizing I would probably never see New Zealand again, I cried. I am emotionally tied to the country for all it gave me and leaving broke my heart.

2. When I realized things only happen once
Barely back from New Zealand, I moved to Italy. I have had such a blast the year before. Hence, I thought Italy would be as great, even better. I was comparing everything with my kiwi experience and obsessed with making it the same. Unfortunately, I realized the hard way nothing happens twice. As a matter of fact, the party girl in me slowly died getting used to a really different drinking and student culture. I did a dual degree in Turin and was a full-time regular student, not an Erasmus student. 32h of classes per week, Saturday mornings included. I had little time left to party and my classmates were only focused on studying which left really few people to party with. Turin was not Wellington. I had wasted most of the year when I realized it and needed to find a way to make the weeks I had left great. Different in many ways but still great. Italy brought me a lot too. Yet, realizing things would never be as good as in New Zealand broke my heart.

3. When Fred died
I have no sympathy for Snape as he was unbearable, a bully and a jerk who didn’t have to act the way he did despite all his so-called reasons. It is open to debate and I won’t discuss it here. My point is, his death let me indifferent. However, Fred’s death… Fred and George were the light and soul of the story. They were joy, fun and boldness in darkness. When George lost his ear, I was upset but relieved: it could have been worse! But when Fred died… The pair were my favorite characters from the series. And Fred died. Things were never going to be the same. I’d rather have Percy die than Fred. But I am not the writer and I also understand her creative choice. I would have probably made the same. But still, his death broke my heart.

4. When the UK voted Brexit
As part of university, I studied European institutions, Community Law and International Relations. The best essay I ever wrote was on the European Community as why it was first created to illustrate the notion of Interdependence Liberalism. A+ my friends. I already knew quite a lot about the European project but I learnt even more. The main goal of the European Community, now European Union, was to keep peace in Europe after three wars by strengthening cooperation on many levels: economic, political, cultural, etc. How beautiful was the idea? And still is! I do believe the EU is something beautiful and still serving its purpose: peace for more than 50 years in Europe! It has many flaws but as everything; and the only way to fix them is to stay and work on them. The EU brings so much to young people and gave me so much. I was not expecting a Brexit vote and I woke up in shock the day after: even more so if immigrations (and racism) was the main reason of the vote. Although I don’t understand it, I respect the vote. What is done is done. But it still broke my heart.

5. When I realized life was never going to go as planned
Life is the most unpredictable thing. Things never happen the way you want. You expect your life to follow a certain schedule: go to university, experience as much as possible, graduate, find a job, make a lot of money and live happily ever after. I realized the hard way it rarely works like that. After handling in my dissertation, I got a graduate job in a consulting company. I had to do an unpaid training before being placed with one of their clients. However, for many reasons, it never happened. Six months wasted. The training was still useful. Yet, I felt like a failure. Then got a job I actually love. And my relationship turned into a long distance relationship. I guess you can’t have everything. It is just a fact and I don’t complain: I know how hard the job market is. I just was not expecting things to go that way. I have now accepted it and I am making the most of every experience. Having all my plans going up in smoke broke my heart but taught me an important lesson: life is unpredictable – which is also why it’s beautiful – and things happen for a reason. Maybe that consulting job was not for me. I am now realizing that it really was not.


What about? Any stories to share? What lessons has life taught you? Are there anything you planned that didn’t go as expected? How did you handle it? What serious or not so serious things break your heart?

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  1. July 30, 2017 / 6:36 pm

    This is such a honest and beautiful post. I didn’t know that you lived in New Zeland and then Italy. It must have been so scary but exciting. I can definitely relate to the last one. I’m a big daydreamer and as much as I love that about myself I also hate it. I want to do so many things but I feel powerless like life is passing by and I can’t get the hang of it. x

    Antonia || Sweet Passions

  2. Kayleigh Zara
    July 30, 2017 / 7:03 pm

    I can totally understand this post my heart broke too when brexit happened! So sorry to hear about you leaving New Zealand too x

    Kayleigh Zara 🌿www.kayleighzaraa.com

  3. Terri
    July 30, 2017 / 7:05 pm

    I would love to study abroad. I can imagine how sad it must be to leave somewhere that meant so much to you!

  4. Robyn
    July 30, 2017 / 7:10 pm

    I really like the idea of this post! I have never seen anything like it before! I think it’s incredibly brave of you to talk about moments in which you were you’re most weak and vulnerable!
    Robyn // http://www.midnightandlace.co.uk/

  5. July 30, 2017 / 7:13 pm

    Such a meaningful post.. good to read something so real Xx

  6. July 30, 2017 / 7:16 pm

    Realising that things only happen once can break your heart, especially when you realise that you could’ve done something differently. Yet it is the future that we need to look upon and it seems like you have a great future ahead. You seemed to make the most of your time in Wellington though and that’s so great x


  7. July 30, 2017 / 7:17 pm

    This was a very honest post! From reading about New Zealand and how much you loved it, I am sure it won’t be the last time you visit and it certainly won’t be the last time you have that much fun. As to Fred, I am 100% with you x
    Claire | clairesyear.com

  8. July 30, 2017 / 7:18 pm

    New Zealand sounds amazing, and so does Italy but 32 hours of classes sounds intense so I can imagine that not everyone had time to socialise! I’m totally with you on Brexit, and when you wrote “when Fred died” and I realised you meant Weasley I nearly cried about it AGAIN! I actually skip that bit in the books now, too emotional!

    Lovely post

    Kate x

  9. July 30, 2017 / 7:20 pm

    I absolutely love how mixed everything is here, especially the Harry Potter heartbreak which I think everyone can relate to, far too much! I’m sure you’re a much stronger person following your heartbreaks than you would have been without.. πŸ™Š

    Andi | http://www.andthenzen.wordpress.com

  10. abbeylouisarose
    July 30, 2017 / 7:21 pm

    Awww Corinne, although you’re reflecting on sad experiences here, it does seem like they were intermingled with some fantastic times! Your trip to New Zealand sounds amazing, although I’m sure it was a bittersweet feeling when you came home! I can definitely empathise with the Brexit horror, I didn’t seriously believe that the vote would go the way it did!! A really different post here, I enjoyed reading!

    Abbey πŸ‘‘ http://www.abbeylouisarose.co.uk

  11. July 30, 2017 / 7:23 pm

    my heart breaks everyday realising that i’m probably never going to get my dream job or house etc. I feel like life is so dull and you have to work all the time to get one small reward. Idk if i’m being dramatic but i hope everything turns out alright haha!!

  12. Grace
    July 30, 2017 / 7:25 pm

    I love this idea for a post, it’s so unique and so interesting! It’s amazing that you got the opportunity to study in New Zealand and Italy! I’m so sorry that Italy was not what you were expecting, and that you had to leave New Zealand that meant so much to you, but it sounds like you had an amazing time. And I completely agree, my heart broke when the UK left the EU too!

    Grace x

  13. July 30, 2017 / 7:31 pm

    This post touched my heart. I can fully relate to the Fred dying one and Britain voting Brexit… that was an emotional day. I couldn’t believe it. Xxxx

  14. July 30, 2017 / 7:37 pm

    I love this so much! I’m sorry Italy didn’t turn out as well as New Zealand, but it’s still an experience and I’m sure it’s nice to look back on!xx

    Hannah | luxuryblush

  15. July 30, 2017 / 8:28 pm

    Great post! I agree Fred’s death was one of the saddest, although did feel for Snape as he did turn out to be good in the end- although for most of the series he was a dick!

  16. July 31, 2017 / 3:53 pm

    What a sad post. Sending you hugs!

  17. July 31, 2017 / 4:10 pm

    Oh man, when Fred died I hid in the bathroom and sobbed. My sister and I had each gotten a copy at midnight and I read much faster, so I didn’t want to spoil it for her. But omg, what a heartbreaker! And. Brexit was hard to watch even for an American (not to mention we had our own stupid election later in the year 😭😭)


  18. July 31, 2017 / 4:11 pm

    Oh man, I’ll never get over Fred’s passing either! Been thinking a lot about Harry Potter as today is his birthday, I really need to re-read the books! #5 is incredibly true, a difficult realization that really feels like a huge crushing blow of adulthood. Love this kind of sharing on the blog, an awesome post!

  19. July 31, 2017 / 4:14 pm

    What an honest post! Things definitely don’t happen twice, you sound like you had a once in a life time experience in New Zealand! I too have been on trips some incredible ones and then expected future ones to be the same!
    Who wasn’t heart broken at Fred’s death?!?
    I hope you get your dream job soon!
    PaleGirlRambling xo

  20. July 31, 2017 / 4:17 pm

    Such a good post! You always hear about the good things and not so much about the bad but it’s still important to take note of them.

    Holly x

  21. July 31, 2017 / 4:25 pm

    I am sad about Brexit too. I cried when I found out that morning, and I think it has made our country more divided. πŸ™
    I have cousins and an Auntie in New Zealand and their life over their looks pretty darn amazing, I’m not surprised you love it. I look through their photos with envy! So much beautiful scenery (I sound like an old lady hehe). Seriously though, the lakes and sea and forest and stuff, beautiful. πŸ™‚

  22. Charlotte
    July 31, 2017 / 4:26 pm

    This is my favourite post in so long!!
    I’ve only truly had my heart broken once and that was when I lost my grandad two years ago.
    However, Charlotte’s Web and Marley & Me broke my heart too-just in different ways;)!
    Amazing post!

  23. July 31, 2017 / 4:35 pm

    This was really interesting to read! I always wanted to study abroad but never had the chance/money to. Now I tell myself that leaving the country after a year would have been very painful, just as you said.
    And I agree with the Brexit thing. I would add Donald Trump here too. πŸ˜€

  24. July 31, 2017 / 4:37 pm

    Fred dying broke me! Yes life is so unpredictable, so glad you enjoyed New Zealand! It’s somewhere I really want to visit x

  25. July 31, 2017 / 4:38 pm

    This was a great post! I’m 100% with you on Brexit, I wasn’t expecting the vote to even happen and the result just didn’t seem real!

    Carla x

  26. July 31, 2017 / 5:02 pm

    What a honest and heartfelt post, I too was sad with Brexit and still am! I also feel heartbroken when I have to stop travelling


  27. July 31, 2017 / 5:20 pm

    Number 5 is a big one and one will have to learn at some point. But there is something great to be said about the unexpected adventures that we find ourselves thrown in.

  28. July 31, 2017 / 5:39 pm

    Life never goes as planned! Thanks for sharing your story! I liked hearing about your experience in NZ and Italy.

  29. July 31, 2017 / 7:09 pm

    As long as we learn from these things, like knowing that the grass is never greener, then I think you could chalk these up to being learning experiences.

  30. Helene Cohen Bludman
    July 31, 2017 / 8:58 pm

    Life can throw us some curveballs and it isn’t always easy to accept them. But things happen for a reason, I truly believe.

  31. July 31, 2017 / 9:00 pm

    This is such a lovely and honest post, Fred dying was awful and I still don’t believe we voted to leave the EU, I’m going to wake up from that sometime right?!

  32. July 31, 2017 / 11:17 pm

    Wow going to News Zealand when you didn’t know English must have been so hard but look at it this way. You made it through the other side. Brexit broke my heart too, stupid government x

  33. July 31, 2017 / 11:25 pm

    New Zealand is such a beautiful place. I would be heartbroken to leave too. I was more than a little sad when my dad died a few years ago when I was only 29.

  34. July 31, 2017 / 11:42 pm

    This was such an honest post. I learned that life never goes as planned early on when I got pregnant at 19. I was like !!!!!!

  35. August 1, 2017 / 2:30 am

    Things don’t always go as planned but one thing we can always control is our reaction to situations. God bless πŸ™‚

  36. August 1, 2017 / 3:01 am

    Those are some legit reasons to be broken hearted. I wouldn’t want to leave New Zealand either!

  37. August 1, 2017 / 1:16 pm

    Sadness just makes u sometimes stronger and let u discover new things ! Try to stay positive and when things happened unplanned just hold on πŸ™‚

  38. August 1, 2017 / 2:28 pm

    Although life doesn’t always go as planned, try to enjoy the path it’s taking you on and learn as much as you can along the way. For every single heart break there will be twice as many moments of triumph and success. Enjoy the process!

  39. August 1, 2017 / 3:58 pm

    Life definitely is full of unpredictable surprises, that’s for sure. We can never take it for granted – live each moment to its best potential, I think! πŸ™‚

  40. August 1, 2017 / 6:06 pm

    You must have had the best time ever in New Zealand as it broke your heart to leave! You can always visit again even if you can’t right now :). I loved this post, thanks for sharing πŸ™‚

  41. August 1, 2017 / 6:16 pm

    I totally feel #5! I had this same broken heart feeling when I graduated college. I thought life was going to be all rosy and great, but adulting is so hard! What I found out is that life is very unpredictable once you get out into the real world and the normal progression you think you’ll have doesn’t always happen. That being said, I didn’t know last year this time I would be almost halfway done with grad school while writing/owner a blog!


  42. August 1, 2017 / 6:26 pm

    I’ve seen so many pictures of New Zealand, and actually somehow ended reading about the history a while back – it’s one of my top places to go and visit! It must have been amazing going abroad and to a new language too! The best way to learn a language is to move to the place it’s spoken rather than studying textbooks hahaha

    Oh hopping from one country to another! I can imagine it was interesting learning different cultures!

    YES FRED when he died I was like no no no the twins were like the pranksters that made everything alright and made people smile why did he HAVE to die!!

    I was watching the Brexit vote as it happened and I have to agree I was not expecting it to go through at all so it was a surprise to wake up to.

    I think when life doesn’t go as planned, that’s when you make the most memories. Everything happens for a reason even if we don’t know the reason yet πŸ™‚


  43. August 1, 2017 / 6:32 pm

    As hard as it is, all these things that break our heart make us smarter and stronger and mold us as a person (maybe except for Fred’s death. That’s just sad!)

  44. August 1, 2017 / 6:44 pm

    Wow, what an amazing post, you’ve done so many incredible things! It sounds like you’ve made some amazing memories and had fantastic experiences, which is something to take away from the heartache. Also I bawled like a baby with Fred!
    Hels xx

  45. August 1, 2017 / 7:09 pm

    Such a brilliant post! Really interested to hear about your time in New Zealand too. Love your honesty in this πŸ’“πŸ™ŒπŸ»

  46. August 1, 2017 / 7:49 pm

    Very interesting post! I would love to visit both New Zealand and Italy some day! Love the post! πŸ’•

  47. August 1, 2017 / 11:02 pm

    This is so well written! Loved this post! Brexit was definitely the headline for me.
    Quitting my job has taught me the most lessons. It taught me to take risks for the better!

  48. Anne Yedlin
    August 2, 2017 / 12:59 am

    It’s interesting to hear about other countries and the culture. Thank you for such an honest post.

  49. August 2, 2017 / 3:18 am

    I think all of these would be so painful to experience for anyone. It’s nice that you’re able to face them and come out stronger on the other side πŸ™‚

  50. August 2, 2017 / 3:47 am

    Your post is very insightful and thank you so much for sharing your thoughts. I think one thing that will surely break my heart is my pet cat passing away. I know I still have many years with her, but my heart break every times I think about it.

  51. August 2, 2017 / 4:35 am

    Failures in any form are part and parcel of our lives for we’ve plans, ambitions. Anything that comes short of our expectations we tend to be affected. It’s a personal concern on how we handle them. Appreciate those things they make our lives worth living.

  52. August 2, 2017 / 7:34 am

    It must have been tough leaving a certain country (New Zealand) and then resuming once again in a different country. The adjustment is hard and it’s like starting over again.

  53. Elizabeth O
    August 2, 2017 / 9:28 am

    Sorry for your heart breaks. You are true that whatever is done is done. Life is really unpredictable, we just have to cope up with the small and big changes passing by because in the end things will gonna be better.

  54. Blair villanueva
    August 2, 2017 / 10:31 am

    In life we only have one chance, and we are so lucky to have it twice. So make the most of it and never waste. And above all, no regrets.

  55. Jasmine Gagarin
    August 2, 2017 / 2:05 pm

    I CAN TOTALLY RELATE. My heart was broken when Fred died!!! and when Dobby Died! πŸ™ I’ve watched it several times and I always die in the inside. Life is really full of surprises…. but all for certain reasons. x

  56. August 2, 2017 / 3:21 pm

    You’ve lived in places I can only dream about going due to health issues. I’ve only had one dream all my life and that was to run a bed and breakfast. I won’t be able to do that, again due to health issues.

  57. August 2, 2017 / 5:39 pm

    So interesting to read about episodes of your life in New Zealand and Italy. You say that in 2012 you barely spoke English, but your English now is impeccable. Interesting how the death of a fictional character impacted you as much as your real life events.

  58. August 2, 2017 / 9:30 pm

    Realizing that life will not go as planned was probably my biggest heart break to date so far as well! You have had a great life thus far though…. rejoice in it!

  59. August 2, 2017 / 10:29 pm

    I loved reading every bit of this post because it resonates with me. I learnt quite early in life that life is not a bed of roses and you never know what path your life would take. These things are heartbreaking but like you said that’s what makes life beautiful. Enjoy the moment, I have learnt to live in the moment.

  60. August 3, 2017 / 12:39 pm

    The fact that you can point out the areas of your life that have hurt you so much is a beautiful thing. You can only grow from the pain by learning why it happened to you in the first place. You can only prevent another heartache by learning lessons from the first! Beautiful post!


  61. August 4, 2017 / 4:50 am

    I can totally relate. I left Philippines to live in the US.

  62. August 4, 2017 / 10:15 am

    That’s a beautiful heartfelt post! I can relate to your feelings when you left NZ, I felt the same when I left UK! Yes, Brexit did shock me too! Btw I had no clue you were talking about Harry Potter characters!! Lolz!

  63. August 21, 2017 / 5:08 pm

    As a politics students, I do disagree slightly on the Brexit part of this; I didn’t have the vote then, and it was just a vote about an organisation-people who voted on a Race-base, quite frankly, are very stupid (and I’d reserve much stronger language for that sort of vote.) But Fred and George should always be together; I disliked that so much!

  64. October 20, 2017 / 8:46 pm

    This is a very honest post. Totally get comparisons too. I do that sometimes!

  65. November 17, 2017 / 8:26 pm

    Hi, loved reading this honest post. I somehow missed that you spent time in NZ, very jealous.

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